Backsliding

But not for long! Yesterday was very emotional for me (I heard back from the relative whom I wrote the letter to, and work just really really really sucked), so I guess I should not be surprised that I turned to food. I did ok when I sat down to lunch - I actually wasn't hungry (1 slice ww toast w/mozzarella cheese, 1 egg, and 2 slices of bacon for breakfast, which probably didn't help) and didn't have my food, just some water, but then ended up eating my coworker's piece of garlic bread. And bitching for almost 10 minutes - at least it seemed that long. Not amazingly, I actually felt SO much better after talking about it. Then a couple hours later, I was finally hungry, and had my soy yogurt/soy granola. Then before school, discovered leftover meeting pizza in the kitchen, and had a slice & a half. It did have some artichokes on it, but that was about it. Munched on trail mix on the way to school.

Then I bought a king size pb cup, and ate a cup at a time, in between class and then on the way home. I also had my granola bar and cheese wheel at break. Then I stopped for a small ice cream (m00se tracks, yum!) on the way home, which was now around 10:30 p.m.. *sigh* I guess things could have been worse, but I definitely was very aware of what I was doing and still chose to do it. Progress, I guess.

No big surprise, but the feelings are still there! Why didn't they go away? I'm being very sarcastic here, in case it wasn't obvious. I will not let it spiral into something that lasts 3 days, a week. I'm going on vacation next week (hanging around home with day trips to the beach, woohoo!) so will need to make sure that there is good food around, but we'll probably end up eating out more often. I also would love to get some serious exercise in, even if it's alternative (playing at the beach, hiking, biking, etc). I don't know if I'll be posting much.

I have homemade black beans, salad stuff, just had 2 cute little tasty apricots, soy yogurt, cheese wheels, grapes. I'm hanging in there.