Ahhhhh(choo) - Spring!

I've made a meeting date with myself every day at 12:45 to "Go Outside!", and my calendar pops up the reminder so that I don't forget. It's been absolutely *gorgeous* these past few days - tomorrow it's supposed to reach 70! Woohoo! So I've walked every day this week for 10-25 minutes. So refreshing. This is the way to take care of my emotional/spiritual health too - I love being in nature, and although work is located in an office park type setting, there are plenty of trees and budding flowers to enjoy amidst the asphalt and cars.

I'm getting my typical spring energy flow going, although I hate hate hate daylight savings time and losing that bloody hour this Saturday (technically Sunday, right?). It often takes me weeks or sometimes *months* to recover. My current internal clock is waking me up around 6:30, which is 15 minutes before the alarm. The logical next step is that next week I'll be waking up around 7:30, hahaha. Ha? I think the trick is to force myself to get up for a week straight and my body clock will eventually catch up. We'll see. Getting to 6:00 yoga class next Thursday should be an absolute blast!!!

Spring is also good for my eating/activity levels. My eating drops and my activity goes up, I have more energy and joie de vivre. I have noted that since I lost these 22 pounds, my natural flow of things is, well, more natural, if you know what I mean. I wish this would kick in soon, because I'm still craving sugar (damn coffee!), and our building cafeteria is closing tomorrow so they sent over a big tray of brownies & oatmeal raisin cookies. I hardly even *like* their brownies and oatmeal raisin cookies, yet I am having some of both. And I had a final cup of their butternut bisque for lunch, and noticed their turkey dinner sandwich (sliced chunks of "real" turkey, stuffing, and cranberry sauce) and HAD to have that, since they're gone for good. Do I see any vegetables or fruit in this picture? I doubt the cranberry sauce is natural, so I can hardly count that as fruit. I guess the butternut would kinda count.

I keep returning to the most likely source of this anxious nibbling/craving, and it's work. I'm toying with the idea of having next June 21 be my last day, or maybe June 20 so that I'm free on the first day of summer in 2007! This would totally depend on where my massage certification/schooling stands by then, and what kind of clientele I have ready to go. Anyway, I calculated the actual number of workdays, not including vacation days but including holidays, and I have 306 more business days to go!!!!!!!!!!! I'm hoping this focus will give me a goal to focus these dadgummed anxieties on and open up opportunities that I may have been closed off to otherwise. Stay tuned!

I'm also hoping that starting school in June will alleviate some of the anxiety. Last night my massage didn't work out due to misunderstanding of the time, so that was a bummer. But I did go and work out instead, and reached my March goal!!! I have done 58 miles since 1/1/06 (elliptical & treadmill), which may not seem like a lot, but I have also been doing yoga, so not always able to up the miles. My reward is a new pair of workout pants. I am a workout clothing ho. My daughter has to physically restrain me when we are in tar-gez or wallyworld near the workout clothes section. I get hepped up on new workout gear. I am a lo-ser!

Despite my questionable eating habits, I am still maintaining at 175, so that's a relief. My work pants are dropping off me today, but the fear of gaining is holding me back from buying smaller sizes. *sigh*