Hot diggety dog

This weather blows chunks. I know we haven't had it anywhere near as bad as the rest of the country, but if we have to put up with crazy winters etc. then summer should be the payoff, yes?

Had the day off yesterday with the daughter, who ended up having a fever and headache (do they PLAN these sort of things), so we went to my mom's, who has year-round air conditioning. It was blissful. I took the opportunity to work out on her elliptical, and lift some wimpy weights (the highest dumbbells she has are 5-pounders, and I wasn't in any mood to figure out her 2300-exercises-in-one universal to do modified shoulder/back stuff.

Food-wise? Don't ask. Not very proud of my eating, yet somehow that hasn't been enough to stop me from doing it. Slowly creeping back towards coffee, haven't had many veggies lately, eating too much chocolate etc.

Could potentially go to the Y tonight, since it's air-conditioned and I don't have other plans other than homework, maybe the son could swim (daughter is at grandma's tonight). Tomorrow night is scout camp family bbq and bonfire, which precludes working out then; Saturday is beach-time for our work party, so will get some walking to/from beach & picnic site and swimming. Sunday is class allllll day, so nothing there.

See, I know that I could get up early and make it work if I truly wanted to, so apparently I do not. I'm a big believer in not making excuses to myself around things that I know I could get done, if the will was there.

I'm also trying to be gentle and compassionate with myself, another struggle for me. I think I should be able to work full-time and go to school almost full-time (2.5 classes) and get all my homework and practice hours in and be a good girlfriend/mommy/friend to my women friends, and somehow work in time for MYSELF. Oh yeah - and exercise and eat right. *sigh* No wonder I'm feeling a little anxious...